i spent the time to sit in my car and shout to the top of my lungs, because of the anger i have inside.

Just simple words of thought.

How can a person retract all the things you’ve said to a girl?

How can a person retract all the actions you’ve done for a girl?

How can a person retract all the emotions you felt for a girl?

Even i can’t think of a way to do that.

But forUSto go back to just being friends leaves me a bit in pain.

As much as i am fine with that, i can’t just let go the things that went down for the first 2 weeks that seemed like a dream come true.

Then again….a dream come true can have its nightmare can’t it?

I won’t blame you.

I won’t blame myself.

I just regret the things i took to make these feelings true

I just regret the actions i made to make you see how i felt.

I just regret the words i spoke to show to you who i truly am.

And to revert back to us being friends.

No matter how much my mind tells me to chase you.

My heart tells me not to,

It stings a bit, to have this happen.

i just wish i can have a relationship that doesnt have it’s complications…

today you’ll love me, tomorrow you’ll hate me, and everyday you’ll think of something postive and negative about me.

(Source: aynakojazlynn)

darkest secret.

I’ll admit, that i never shared this to anyone.

At one point in my life, i wanted to end it all for me.

End my life, end the suffering, and end all the stress that has built up in me.

But in the end, it wouldn’t of been worth it because of my family, future, and those who needed as a friend.

so thank you to those who kept me together since day 1